I feel out of it.
I feel like I am unaware of what is going on in the world. MY world consists of student teaching and wedding plans. However, I feel like I am lacking in both of them. Some say I am too hard on myself. But hey, you can't argue with facts. My last observation was today. Needless to say, it was not my best. Not the ideal observation you want to have when going in your exit interview on Thursday. ' It was an off day huh?' was the first thing my supervisor started off with in our discussion after my observation. Am I going to pass student teaching? Of course, I am a rock star. Even they have 'off days.' I mean, my abilities to B.S. reflections and other school work is totally diminishing. I know it has something to do with my lack of time with Ally. My effort level is slowly decreasing and I yet, I need to find a job and start making money cause I am GETTING MARRIED!
Perhaps my lack of effort is fear of future responsibilities that are too grown up for me or just out of my comfort zone. Why don't magic eight balls really work again?
Wedding plans are moving along great. But seem to catch up with me when I think I have things covered. My mom and future step mom are doing amazing and I am so grateful for all that they are doing to make the day amazing. I have no doubt that it is going to be anything less. Announcements will be out soon, so look forward to those! I am V.E.R.Y excited to see them in person, in my hands.
With everything going on in ‘my world’ I have needed extra 'pick me ups.' No, not drugs mom and dad. Just reminders that I am capable, that I am a rock start and that I do deserve all that has been given to me.
With the good examples of Ally and Kelsey I too have been listening to conference talks in the morning as I get ready for my 'hell' of a day. With the hopes of making it easier to last. This morning I listened to this talk. Have a listen. It will make your whole world change and remind you that you do matter. That someone does notice EVERYTHING that you do.
Call this your Tuesday pick me up. Have a great week everyone!